Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Wearing a hijab - an honest view


 I came across a video made by a vlogger. She looked like a Malaysian but from the sound of the seasoned accent, I am pretty sure she was brought up abroad  She was talking about how she is dissappointed by the fact that nowadays, wearing a hijab is no more something people look up upon. Tudung wearers don't actually live up to the real meaning of covering their precious 'aurat'. They wear tudung but with a tight outfit. Hijab is about modesty but they put a massive amount of make-up on the face and they don't act modestly in terms of speaking, laughing etc. Hijab should be about Muslims' identity but we can't differentiate now whether those who still show a part of their hair, are non-Musims who just 'covering' their hair from the sun, or they are Muslims who don't know how to wear one.

Every single thing that she pointed out was true and i could not agree more. Being a tudung wearer myself, I am far from the sisters who cover their aurat perfectly. I have always wanted to talk about Hijab and it happens to be the number 1 topic that came up especially between me and my non-Muslim friends. All sorts of questions were thrown at me. Why do Muslims have to wear one? Why do some Muslims don't? Since when did you wear hijab? Don't you feel hot when you wear it? How come some people pray but they don't wear a hijab? and how come others do wear hijab but they don't pray? and trust me, there are actually a lot more.

I am glad to know that they are interested in knowing more about Islam and the hidden agenda behind wearing a hijab. When people asked me why do I cover my hair, two things came across my mind. Firstly, is because I am brought up this way. I won't simply call my family as a conservative one, but as far as I am concerned, mine is comparatively more particular about the do's and dont's in Islam. I first started covering my head when I was in standard 2. I remember the reason why I said yes when my parents asked me to was simply because all my other friends started to wear it. Apparently, following fashion trend and peer pressure can actually be a good thing ;)

The second reason is because wearing a hijab restrains me from doing a lot of bad things that I want to do if I otherwise don't wear one. I have to face the fact that in being a teenager in this modernized era, drinking, clubbing have became part of a daily routine. Let alone the fact that prayers and taking care of halal and haram food are being neglected. These kind of unhealthy  influences surround me almost every single day. And no, I am not talking just about the non-Muslims. This is not me, judging my circle of friends, nor me, justifying why am I not wearing hijab as how I'm supposed to. This is me, talking about an issue that even me myself am struggling to be better at.

In wearing hijab, I find a lot pros. Even those that I sometimes need someone else to remind me about. Cz we, at times don't see those simple simple things that came with it. One example comes back to the role of hijab as a Muslim's identity. This applies especially when you stay/live outside Malaysia. I've been here in Sydney for almost 2 and a half years now but I never failed to notice this : every single time I see another tudung wearer like I am, regardless of their nationality, an instant willingness to nod and smile always appears. I am pretty sure it is because nothing more than just a sense of ease you feel to see a person who share the same believes as you do.

I am now at a point where I know I should be improving myself. I know I wear not as appropriate as Islam suggests me too. I know the only reason of you protecting your aurat is solely because of the Lord, or at least, should be the first thing first. And I have no right to justify myself and giving excuses. Hijab is not just about covering but rather, more about having your mind and heart comprehending how it supposed to guide you in living your life. I have some free-haired friends that earned higher respect from myself than those who cover their hair. That is to prove that sometimes we shall never judge people by appearances and perceptions. Talk less about how bad people are but instead pray more that Lord will always lead us to the right path and perhaps bring them back to where they should be. After all, we are never too sure that we are better than anybody else,.. or actually a lot more worse.

Cheers.