my oink oink!

to my dearest and favourite person on earth,

HA HA happy birthday oink oink!!
on this very special day of urs, i'd like to thank you for EVERYTHING. terima kasih sebab:

1. selalu bwk balik easyway utk i eventho x dipesan
2. temankan i pegi class eventho u xphm sepatah haram ape lecturer i tu bebel
3. selalu amikkan laundry yg i sengaje tinggalkan so that u boleh
exercise sket turun naik tangga :)
4. lepas tu siap tlg lipatkan
5. jage i mase i teruk kena serang dgn bedbugs dulu
6. and mse i demam jugak
7. selalu keringkan rambut i and letak mosturizer sume cukup
8. dodoikan ble i xbuley tido
9. datang support i mase running for MSO eventho u dgn si momon gemok tu lah org yg paling xsuka i selalu dgn my MSO
9. basuhkan bekas makanan i after sahur
10. tlg "aiipp" kan dekat momon ble die buat hal
11. buatkan note gud luck everytime i ade test/exam
11. ...
12. ...
13. ...


123. and last but not least, for being the most awesome buddy anyone cud ever have!




p/s: yg in between tu bnyak sgt xlarat nk pikir n tulis.

God bless you bababeee~

results

I got a WD for Business and The Law. I swear I almost choked up after finding out what's a WD actually mean.
"the student did not complete one or more component of the course and the result is yet to be finalised"

I called the business school right after, n they told me to wait for a few days. ok fine. i waited, n next thing i know, it's been 2 weeks. I called them again n i was told to contact the lecturer incharged, Miss Leela. ok. did that. n thennn i was told to contact another lecturer Mr Bill Butcher since Miss Leela is out of office.

N here starts the emailing thread between me and Bill. I told him how i was confused with the result displayed because frankly speaking, i was confident that i did not screw up in anything. I told him hw i was worried for not being able to enroll for my other intended LEGT subjects. Luckily, this particular lecturer responded to me *snap. like that. he said he would be looking into this matter.

He then got back to me saying that i did not seem to hand in my first assignment and i did not fulfill the attendance as required. TEFAK! I even know my marks for that assignment. how could i possibly not hand in the task?? And regarding the attendance, i assured him that i NEVER skipped my tute classes. Of course. It was my favourite subject for God's sake. and i even did ask him to refer the matter to my tutor who happened to be my favourite tutor as well. (she has a little son who is soo adorable my Goddd i wanna kick dat little cute ass). ok back to business.

n yesss, all i was thinking at that very moment was, "oh noooooo don't say i hav to repeat dis subject once again".

after a lot of responds given by and to Bill for a few days, jusst this morning, he told me the good news. that my tutor has confirmed that i DID hand in my assignment, and DID attend all the tute classes. fuuhhhh!!! soo relieved. soo happy. I'm so glad that Bill had been very helpful in helping me dealing with dis. he was very concerned, he took it seriously and he took a prompt action towards this. and i cannot be more thankful to him. he even appologised to me for havin to bare a worrying wait because of some mistakes in the system.



and im just done with my enrollment. i kinda like my new timetable. teeheeee~

sight

i dunno bout you. bt i often observe things dat are happening around me, and make assumptions, reasonings and imaginations out of it.

it was a normal day when i waited for the 372 bus dat goes from city, back to my place in malaysiia hall when i suddenly saw a couple of oldies,.. standing not so distant from myself. the husband kept on looking at a note on his hand. perhaps he jotted down the number of bus they shud be taking. maybe m just being paranoid or sumtin but i hate it evrytime i see that kind of scenes. u knoww.. old people. looking messy. helpless. trying hard to travel from one place to another.

maybe that was just me. bt try looking at a different case. have you ever come across a street or a mall where the cleaner is a tired-looking old man/lady? i bet u hav. i bet $100 bugs for dat!
it feels soo wrong. at dat very age, they shudnt be like dat. by dat time, they shud be happily staying at home, playing with their grandchildren, gardening, do the stuff they really enjoy doing. bt cleaning a garbage site?? that is so sick to look at. SICK!

right there n there, i swear to myself dat there's no way my parents wud go through such thing like that. n i pray to God i wud never be like those kinds of children who just give hundreds of excuses.
"u dont understand, they're so hard to look after"
"we're busy. we just dont hav the time"
"they dont wanna listen to us. what else cud we possibly do?'

yeah right. how else do u think ur parents took care of u? it is as exact hard as how u think of looking after em. n i still pray though. that i would never forget what i write today.

itinerary

sunday, 31st October 2010 - intended itinerary

8.30 am : rise n shine

8.45 am : breakfast

10.30 am : go to uni's library

5.00 pm : back from library

sunday, 31st October 2010 - 'what-actually-happened' itinerary

9.45 am : rise n shine

10.00 am : breakfast

10.30 am : acoustic karok session with raja

1.30 : session finished

2.30 : blogging

bravo. (=.=')

when the going gets tough

there were a lot of moments where i wud write almost 3 paragraphs of a post, n discarded evrythin, believing dat it wudnt be necessary to share a perticular feeling. until 2 minutes ago, i wasnt too sure either. bt at dis exact point of time i'm thinking,
"to hell! dis is what i feel n dis is the truth."

it's been a tough week. a real tough week. i was appointed as a VP. as awesome as dat sounds, there is more to it. much more than i ever expected to discover. it took me a whole lot of courage to take dis one step of running to be someone more important in a particular community. inspired, motivated, n supported with much love from friends n colleagues, i did it. i got it. dat was fine.

but once ure on the top, there would be, (and must be) those who hate to see ure reaching there. they wish u wud rather fall n hav ur face right down on the floor. who just simply dont care. and also there are those who question things. saying how u don't deserve it n what not.
n it gave me a smack on the back of my head to see who really do care to gve a hug to show hw proud they are. who wud willing to, even for once, put themselves relatively below n looked up upon u. nothing less than from a friend to friend.

u know hw often i like to mention about learning? dis is definitely another thing. i learn to better appreciate people around me who really wud be there to whisper to my ear, saying dat things wud just turn out to be fine. who wud tell me to be strong and wud listen to my side of story.
after all, that is the side that they will always be at. n i thank God for dat.

getting out of track just by a little too much, it gets me thinking dat in life, to know how to be good to people, you got to learn to respect n appreciate people.
no matter how much u dislike a person, have some decency n at least pay a little respect.
especially when they gve u no reason not to be respected. a person who doesnt wish to seriously listen to what people say, doesnt mean he/she does not listen at all.

knowing ur limit and to understand how people wud feel when they are mistreated, does not make you any less stronger. n saying how u wish u wud be forgiven, does not put your pride any less lower. people make mistakes. intentionally or not. bt what u do to amend those which counts more. for me, knowing how guilty someone is after crossing a line gives me enough reason to forgive. bt if egois comes into play not even to say sorry, but to feel guilty about it, i cant say much. just shame on you.

judging

there is absolutely nothing wrong about your choice to want to judge people. especially if u intend to just keep it to urself n do nothing about it n as long as it doesnt bring any harm. but i just personally think no matter how hard or how often you hold an impression towards people, you should at least, try to understand them.

n i really think u should also at least try to get to know someone before accusing them of anything.
if u dislike a person due to one particular reason, then try to find some other reasons to love them. u can, u just don't want to. u are not a perfect person urself which further gives you no reason at all to put a wall between u n them.

n if u choose a certain way to live ur life, don't act surprise or justify urself too much when some people chose the other. just because people may not think the way u do, they are to be blamed?
it is sad of you to believe such way. SAD.

bottom line :
WHY FOCUS ON NEGATIVITY?

self

being the way you want to be is quite a task.

cz others sumtimes just don't approve.

for such reason, a weirdo comes to existance.

and how now?

ur way or their way?



"don't try to perfect urself. let them love ur imperfections"

lost

if roses are meant to be red.

and violets to be blue.

then why isn't my heart.

meant for you?



-anouk-

kapak

blogger : babe, do u know dat song by awie?? it goes like... nananana.. nanan nanan nanaa...

roomie : uuu uuu !! i know dat song. bt i dunno the title. wait go utube.

*a moment later

roomie : is it dis one??

blogger : haaaa!!! yup2 u got it. five!




yes, i am currently addicted to 'kapak' songs. from awie, slam, handy black to saleem n everythin in between. i mean, those are really really 'kapak' songs. i didnt know my addiction is dat severe until one night.



roomie : babe, hav u been listening to dat awie song over n over again?

blogger : o dgr ea?

roomie : ure using ur earphone bt ure singing along. so, duuhhh..

blogger : o well heeee.. sorry cant help it.


(^_^)

past

him : you n the things you do,.. never fail to amaze me. there were and still are times when i was confused with some things u did n said. bt evrything dat had happened, was history.


her : forgive me for evrything. bt there's one thing i wud love u to do.
Just dont forget about us.




things in life come n go. so do people. somehow u wish good things to stay where they are, bt God knows why they wont. u may have given ur best. u do the right things. n u do all things possibly right. too bad it always take both ways. not mere one.
n after all have became part of ur past, all u cn afford to do is to look back n smile at those.
there is nothing u shud regret about. it is just a matter of time where u will be thankful that what had happened just happened in that certain way.
if u stick urself in those memories, hoping for it to come another round, how wud u possibly discover new ones?
in future, u wud probably be suprised of what life cn offer u with.
n perhaps if u cud just draw urself back for a little while n think about in a whole new point of view, u might have given a smack on ur head as u realize ur life is currently freaking awesome.
"then why wait for the future?"
just live life.
cz no matter how shitty shit things cn be, evrything wud turn out to be just fine.

words

words are easily thrown to people. when we make comments, when we speak up regarding a matter n even when we intended to be funny. but words can go so wrong that cost people their day. 'when words are sharper than swords', thats when people will remember u for what u've said. n there's no turning back.
sometimes its not even about what u said, its more of HOW u said it. now this is the one that i found really hurtful. whenever the sound of it replays in the back of my mind, it hurts even more.

watch ur words. it is easy to say but never is to be done. because we cant always afford to think beforehand. we like to do it the other way around. to those who the words are meant to, they accept it this way- it doesnt matter whether u intend to say those or not. once u say it, dat means it is at least in ur unconscious mind. n when those are in the unconscious mind, it's just a matter of time until it will be thrown out using the voice. in a simplified version, the fact that u think about it is enough to let people know that u really mean what u say.





sooooo



think before u say!!


or at least try to.. ;)

dissapointment

ive just gotten my results for the first semester. n for the moment being, im certainly not too proud of myself. *huge big sigh

i did a horrible job in my exams, both relatively or not. have no guts to tell my mum bout it yet. but damn me! sooner or later i still i hav to face it. i really hate to dissapoint my parents dis way, or in anyway possible. im just so hoping dat the dissapointment wud help me to brood over the mistakes i hav done n therefore, making me a better person. just hopefully.

but anyways i am still very relieved that i didnt fail my statistics tho. statistics. this is the subject which had the most possibilities of causing me the 'F' word. Goddd im so screwed when it comes to maths, calculations and anything in between. i wonder how people in actuarial courses cn pull it off in solving those complex figures' problems and shit. *no offense

and one more thing. it came to my suprise after knowing that most of my frens did worst in their MGMT (managing organisations and people) but guess what? i did my best in them. wtf! seriously talking, i really dunno whether to be flattered or smashed by that fact.

n right now all i can think of is how n when to break this news to my perents. dang it!

Border

I am walking on a fine line between the good and the bad.

Walking on this tiny little border of the black and white gives me the honor to hav a look on both sides and make judgements out of it. before it's too late. Don't blame me for judging. Im definitely judging for good.

As what ive seen, black can be white, bt only when they're scared n white can be black when they think black is more desirable by the current world.

Companion of those who u may think are 'right' might actually be so wrong. U wanna play their game? Go on. Bt who's gonna safe ur neck later on?

only i hope that if u choose to be that, do not question why the others chose the other way around. do ur own thing n live ur life how u think is supposed to be.

The thought of 'it's okay' really is deadly. its okay? its NOT okay? who are u lying to? urself?

Each time when i realise i ain't a good person myself, i tend to believe dat i deserve at least a respect for staying put through conditions and circumstances that expect me not to.

Sumtimes from the views i get from both sides left me with one option - to not go to the extreme of each side. well, i know dat's not good enough. It needs more than that.

The consequences. I do not even dare to hav a mere glance on it. The consequences are unimaginably disasterious bt almost no one really care to ponder.

this is not just dedicated to u. it is especially meant for me.

n for that, i wish all of us the BEST of luck in deciding our path of living.

surprise

to get suprises is just so awesome. when I was a kid, even when my father came back from work with a mere bar of chocolate! or..... pisang goreng!, or.........aiskrim potong durian! (well basically they were edible stuffs), i jumped off my seat and 'yeaying' about it for the next two minutes. suprises are unexpected, which is why it is pleasuring and exciting.
ive always been a lover of suprises myself. they're just so so sweet. but..... now i figure, i actually like to suprise people more. it even feels much greater! trust me. ;p
the suprising face,... n the appreciation u get after it went so well,... it just makes u feel the awesomeness about giving. (ok did i just repeat the word 'awesome'? daymmnn my vocab sux)
to express in another word, by making someone's day, u jz made urs. n i wonder in a sudden. why is the world not peaceful enough, when making lives happy is just so simply done?

buds

"great buddies are happy buddies ;) "

a day long

yesterday, was a real long day. woke up at 6am for a 20 mins distance walking to uni for a 7am meeting. n i swear it ws freaking cold! n winter is even yet to come. wut will become of me?? *sigh. after marching around the campus, armed with chalks for the sake of promotion, Sebs shouted me, Yiin, Vats n KB a cuppa coffee each. yeayness!

p/s: i jz knew aussies use 'shout' instead of 'treat'. n i thot it ws cool. teee~

we headed to city for some reasons, n wz super duper hungry when Su Yi offered to show us the way to one of the '10 BEST RESTAURANTS' IN Sydney. Walaweyhh.. With Yiin, the girl who travels for food, n KB, the guy who was starving like hell (no its actually me..;p), n Andre, who's always fine with anytin,.. n so it was decided..

as we were havin a hard time choosin from the menu list, we tried to figure out as well wt kind of rest ws it. Lebanese, French, Mid-Eastern-ish, Turkish,.. those were the suggestions bt no one really knew wt is it really. hahah. bt who cares? we were there for food!

I decided to jz go for the french toast. and the others ordered a dish of minced lamb and another dish of duck. it wz just a toast bt it tasted sooo gooodd.. so good dat im willing to go all the way jz to hav a breakfast there. haha exaggeration much. bt really, it's the best french toast ive ever tried. the thick bread, the huge cut of butter, the syrup, the figs. urrggh so well put together. (^_^)

the artworks

the people

n of course, the toilet-camwhoring. ;p
what?? its a must laaa..


n so we headed back to uni then for our PASAR MALAM thing. it ws fun selling teh tarik in the midst of the cold nite n felt a little closer to home with all the malaysian fav food. simply awesome.. ;p

closet

fuhh.. done with tests. dunno y dis time is a lot more pressuring tho.. ;(

once im done with test, a trigger to shop come right away. sumbody explain dis plz. to be true, simple things cn trigger me to shop. seeing sumbody else's closet makes me wanna shop. seeing my own makes me wanna shop. seeing clothes' tags makes me wanna shop. n dis is one thing about myself my mum has always been fussing about.

blogger : saye rase happppppyyyyyy sgt ble shopping.

question : boyfriend u cmne?

blogger : im lucky i dun hav one. ;) kalau ade pun i'll say, "kau g main jauh2. aku nk shoppin. jgn kacau!"

one good thing when even living as a shopaholic is my willingness not to always buy designer's stuffs. i like em.. of course. bt they are stuffs i wont willing to spend my proportion of income for. as long as it looks good, (more importantly looks good on me), y do u care for the status dat a brand satisfy u with? bt sumtimes, i lose in the battle of avoiding temptations. (=_=')

note - no matter wt ppl say, being a shopaholic is still nt a crime for me.

recall the feeling u hav when u shop. nw imagine the feeling u wud hav if all the things in the shop belong to u. dis is when the pure joyness sets in. thus, having a walk-in closet of my own is one of my ultimate dreams in life.




one day i will.

learn

owh once again? bring it on.

when responsibility comes knocking, what would u do? pretend ure not home? come on laa tetamu dtg xkan nk sap kok lu? responsibilty is a chance that most people wud be frightened to accept. u shud instead grab it n prove to people hw worthy u are. bt then of coz, it doesnt jz come as simple as it may sound. everything has a price bro. bt i chose to forget about the price i have to bare. rather, focusing on the end benefits is a better choice.

now lets get down to business. people. they are actually the main subject u hav to think of. not the products, nor the organization itself. its the freaking humans. scary? yes, definitely. people are those that wud determine whether ur job is easy or tough. n i can bet, even CEOs of big companies with years of experience wud go hay-wire once people (of the society) take actions, or even make one simple statement. deadly one i mean. bt keep in mind as well, they are also those that make CEO, able to be called one.

taking few steps behind to a way more informal situation. to satisfy people's wants are always our goals. bt to satisfy all of them, is rather impossible. one may show undoubtful respect towards what u hav done bt others may not fancy the way u do things. endless complaints, endless talkings, endless disagreements, endless head-shakings. the question now is, hw wud u handle these? do give me the honor to answer. to me, no matter how hard it gets, no matter hw huge the obstacle that u need to overcome, always take it as a lesson. excuses are pointless. admit what u did wrong and never to repeat again. because ive always been a believer that life is about learning.

if u have the will to do better, ur weakness wud not stay for long. IF u have the will i shall repeat. ;)

i hate/like u

no matter hw good a person is, i believe humans cant help bt to retain their self-built impression towards those people surrounding. n at times, its hard to explain why we jz dont really fancy sumone. no matter hw hard dat person tries to please us or to amend their wrong doings from the past, to forgive might seem easy, bt never to forget.

hw i just wish no matter hw bad my view towards sumone is, wont show dat much. hw i wish i cn treat people equally n being nothing other than equal. hw i wish i cn hate people for what they do, not because they are who they are. as i cn understand hw hurtful n uneasy it is, to be judged before we are really known.

n due to this, i shall say. there is no other way to really know sumone than to really know dat sumone. simple. one may look noble from outside bt to dig thoroughly to know wts inside, is ur task. hw far n hw long? YOU tell me. n it goes the same for the other way around. with dat i rest my case. ;)

Quote

it's always difficult to start something new.. (Farizo, 2010)

charming

as he opens his mouth, no eyes wud not be staring at him because the soft voice alone captures people's interest to look at who's speaking n those eyes would not blink until his final word of 'thank you'. dat exact same voice would touch the hearts of the listeners because it is the nature of people to always adore soothing stuffs. as he explains, he tries to be well understood n would never hesitate once question is thrown n would never as well feel the burden of answering it satisfyingly. he would greet n smile as if u are the most important person of the event, n at one point u think, dat is the sweetest smile uve ever cme across. he would look u straight in the eyes because eye-contact means listening, and listening means understanding. he would not at all, let people think dat they dont belong there. in fact, being around him is the most comfortable thing at dat certain moment. he lets people feel the warmth of the conversation without being flirty. he jokes without being silly. he laughs without being fake. he recognize people without being judgemental. n he's being polite without being weak. he is serious if confronted in a serious manner n stay being professional though at times being ridiculous is desired. the things dat he talks about would not at all meant to offend people n not at all meant to raise himself to be above others. hence proves dat staying down-to-earth is always his practised policy. n what more? the simplest gestures dat he makes are of his very own n unknowingly unforgettable.



n hw cud u not describe him as being charming?

(^_^)

hw do u do? im fine thank u.

u're happy

n m doin fine





till we meet again? ;)

him and Him

I wud be willing to put aside whatever things dat i do and give all my possible attention to him jz so i wont miss any single thing he says which more often than not, lasts for more than half an hour.
Then why would I say it's a waste to leave my work once He calls??



I wud put my make-up on, get my hair fixed, dress to impress n hav an extra spray of fragrance to go out on a date with him.
Then why dont I care bout how I look if it's His turn??



I wud beg him for forgiveness if I hurt him, if I say something offensive, if I ever ignore him, if I ever dissapoint him and feel really bad about it.
Then why do I become heartless if it's Him dat I should apologize to??



I wud write a song for him, and make a video of a dedication to him so the whole wide world knows hw I feel towards him.
Then why is it so shameful and weird to sing about Him in front of my pals??





p/s : its not an intention to compare God with anythin or anyone. jz dat we often make wrong choices, dont we?




ponder.

away

receiving a warm welcome from the city itself, made me fall in love with it almost instantly.
well helllooo sydney!! nice meeting u. hpe we'll be coperating well in the next 3 years to come.

m staying in msia hall for one sem for now n i like it so much dat i hav already keeping a thot of staying for a couple more sems. teeee. food sdap gle.. seniors sempoi.. weather is acceptable for now.. n... wt more. cost murah!!

the city, i mean the sceneries basically are all drop-dead gorgeous. went to unisyd for a while n it took my breath away. fuhh. lawa gle. hav a scroll !!

Coogee Beach : it seems sunny bt its breezing cold. its jz a tiny beach. nice view tho!


Opera House : they say, "u cn nvr claim uve been to sydney if u had nvr been to the opera house". in the middle of the windy night, we treated ourselves with cuppa hot chocolate. at Guylian! superb..


Sydney City : bus rides are anytime evrytime.


University of Sydney : told u its breath-taking..


UNSW's library : nadia (my new roomate), came back from uni trip n showed me hw cool our library is. n rite der n der we've found the perfect napping spot. ;)


Centennial Park : loads of birds.. wic scared me off.


University of New South Wales : n of coz, the main purpose of all..

with love.. to all.;)

pre-departure

here comes my pre-departure post.

m currently very nerrvouss..

why? : bcoz im heading sydney. a place i nvr thot i wud spend my three years in. having nothing to expect bcoz i hate the aftermath of expecting too much. so, better jz wait n pray for the best.

m currently very tired..

why? : bcoz i hav to plan the best strategies so i wont exceed the weight limit given by MAS. i hate packing esp when there are rules to follow. plus as there is endless renovation going on at my hse, there is as well endless need to tidy up the house. dis is for the sake of the wedding wic wud be held at my house on the exact same date dat i wud b flying off. JACKPOT!

m currently in love..

why? : well lets jz skip this part. heee. btw, Wolstenhome!! ok fine i will still spill. hav u ever seen him performing on stage?? he's such a... rockstar. when he walks while plucking (i dunno hw else to explain) the guitar, he looks superbly awesome en en... teeeee.. stylish i wud say?? ;))

m currently very sad..

why ? : bcoz im leaving my family here... ;(( dis is serious. for nw, m jz sad. still no sign of pouring tears. bt no one knows wt's gonna happen at the airport. n m definitely valuing evry second spent with them. n m actually quite scared. it happens dat 'homesickness' is the thing i most certainly fear of.

rockstar

meet my rockstar.

christopher wolstenhome. (^_^)

who??

sumtimes a nod from across the room will jz do.

bcoz the 'what' doesnt really matter.

it's about the 'who'.


(^_^)

kawan

KAWAN - wt a personally strong word for me tonite


there are different kinds of people which we call friends.

1. friend dat matters

2. friend dat does not matter

3. friend dat matters only at certain times

4. friend dat matters bt in a way dat is not very much desired

5. friend dat u jz know by name

6. friends for benefit

7. friend dat u dun even call one




today there were two friends, n ive been in the exact similar shoes they are currently in. he & she. the case with him is as i recall hw sumone else has helped me thru it dat is certainly nt a huge matter bt huge enough to matter at dat certain moment, while the case with her is where i know exactly hw it felt n hw badly i needed sumone to talk to. i guess Oprah is right about passing it around. deeds dat ppl done to us are sumtimes not meant to be paid back but to help others instead.

usya!

the garden - mirah

der's no need to learn to love the song. its a 'right away' response.

credits to 'so u tink u cn dance'. updating my playlist is easier with ur presence.

zaf

wz jz thinking dat i wud finish off watching all 5 parts of the victoria's secret 2009 fashion show on utube last nite when suddenly ZAF gve me a buzz... n of cz i gve up the clips for zaf bcoz dis girl is so irresistable.. cnversations with her cn nvr be boring. FLOW is simply our mutual possession. non stop FELLO! it cn go on foreverr... n it almost did. 7 hrs kowt! from her havin brunch at 12 (uk's time) until around her dinner time. n after all, 7 hrs still isnt quite satisfying. Gosh we're soo good at dis kn zaf?? haha.

n as we talked n talked, i act cme 2 realise dat there's act whole lot more dat i hav no idea about. like.. "KAU XPENA CITE PUN!!" n dat is exactly why i said hrs of talking doesnt seem to be enough for us. n i officially hav an unofficial part-time job nw : to handle zaf n her dramatic issues.. haha.

zaf : dlu kn kalau mak aku mrh aku cket je aku ckp mak aku x syg aku.

blogger : haha. i finally found sumone who's worst than i am mannn..

zaf : n sumtimes kalau aku merajuk aku dgn dramatic nye volunteer tido luar. cm pathetic gle la kn, kononnye mak halau. buat crite sdey.


ahaha.
n of cz, girls' talk shud nvr be called one without a cnversation about the OTHER sex. teeheee... n here comes the gossiping, very own problems, bla3.... alaa, cm xbse lak.


blogger : aku rse kaum kita ni cm angin lbey.

zaf : so girls need to fart more utk keluarkan anginn. ahahahahah.

blogger : L for LAME!!


n of cz, others are best left untold. after all, dis page is only for things dat are best shared.. true??

;)

loser

LOSER!!!
der, rite on my forehead. in BOLD.

note : only in driving scenario. ;)

i wud hav to admit. i really m a loser when it comes to driving. today, dad's nt around n some renovation is going on at my hse n so there's a need to move the car. guess wt happend. my mum had to walk 100m distance to find a neighbour for a HELP bcoz i didnt dare to even start the engine! loserrrr .. double loserrrrrr.... ni sume tiang pnye psl! soon after gotten my driving lisence (2 years ago) as wt other ppl wud do, ronggeng lah bersama kereta. batak gle barbs ngn steering. NOT until i accidently bumped into the electric pole in front of my hse. TERBAIKK!

dad : xpa2.. x mati xpa..

dad.. always the coolest one. ;) langgar2 tros g repair b4 mak tahu. *wink* its our typical father-daughter conspiracy y'knoe.. n so DAT's when the phobia cme in. pffttt. well at least i hav reasonable reason y m i being such a loser rite...............? rite?? no?? thot so.... ;)

jackets

u wish u had them too rite? dun lie. ;)

MUSE

blogger : ubee! u xnk g muse cncert ke?? jz askin btw.

ubee : kt spore? u g?

blogger : i want to bt havent planned nytin yet. yup2 s'pore. going?

ubee : hmm i dunno i dun tink so. act i hav a school project to settle on dat day.

blogger : come onn. dun tell me ure givin up muse for a school project.. ;)

ubee : haha. erm m nt sure yet. i'll update with u later k.


*days after

blogger : mak nk g cncert kt s'pore boley?

mak : ha?? nooo...

blogger : makkk...

mak : no3.. *waving


wt wz i thinking?? of cz its a no. pfftt. ;(

out n about

ok agk lmbat nk mg update on my outing with two of my fav ppl ; suraya mazlan n nabila farhana.

nabila : wednesday on jom! tgk old dogs. heh.

blogger : ok!

we left home around 10++ n den went to pick up sue, yada3.. smpai sunway carnival 11.30. haha. i knoe. agk siput itu hari. by the time we reached there i wz sgt2 hungry. bt we decided to get the ticket first n foremost when suddenly nabila gve an idea dat i cudnt agree more. switch to paranormal activity. o yea o yea! ive always been a thriller/scary movie lover. woot! sue pn ok.. n so it wz decided..

we headed to manhattan fish for lunch n luckily ordered a set yg sgt kcik. learning from experience, we knew we cud nvr finish them off if we ordered individually. alooong the way we were havin a conversation about the malaysian, indonesian n australian. haihh nabila start! haha. n sue did spill bout her life back in indon. as we were about to leave, we were havin some trouble in figuring out who pays hw much. see, we werent being calculative pun bt it gve us a slap on the face knowin the fact dat they are act simple maths. its forgivable for the geologist n the doctor (ehem2) to fail in such things bt NO BLOODY WAY for the accountant! tqvm.


n so dkat cinema, serious shit ade 8 org only. week day kowt! der wz one lady who cme to watch with her husband, she wz being friendly n so we had a little chat about movies. we act cud be the mean movies' critics rite der n der. ;)



ok. paranormal. wt shud i say. BORING. well dats wt all 3 of us thot. it ws too slow, indeed.

nabila : baik tgk seekers je dowh.

haha. really exactly. the best n scariest part wz like 10-15 mins b4 the movie ended. bt i hav to tell u dat DAT part still haunts me up to dis date. part KENE TARIK KAT KAKI! urrgh.

blogger : jom lepak stabak!



after all, dis is always my favourite part about going out together i.e lepak2 borak2 minum2 coffee2.. haha. we did some catching up stuffs. nabila did her 'memerli jen yg hitam' stuffs n sue did her 'korg buat lwk, aku tlg gelak' stuffs.. funny things like these, are those dat u will easily cherish ;)




tanx for the day. love!

forgive

m really sorry for the things dat i hav done, which i didnt do on purpose bt currently stuck itself in my mind for too long dat will hardly get the hell out of there without leaving a scar.

sometimes when ure doing a mistake, u actually knew all along dat it is nt supposed to be done and most probably cn nvr be accepted by urself if it is done unto u. bt u cudnt care less to even think about the consequences of ur behaviour. n suddenly, u finally admit it once it backfires urself. its definitely karma baby..

n wt kills u more inside is when dat someone nvr held a grudge against u. thus, better proves ur jerk-ness. there's also an unquestionable question dat u still wanna question. y dun dis person hate me tho? u jz hav to bare the fact dat sum ppl are simply nt dat jerk type as u are. the blame, will always be put on u... by u. urself.

having said all dat, thank you is the most i cn do.. at least for now. thank you for... (too much to state) everything n do forgive me for... (will even take forever) everything. its a forgiveness dat i may nvr get bcz damn it, i do not hav the guts to seek it. GUTS.. those dat i shud hav had long b4 any of these happend. well, arent there enough reasons to hate me now?


n i wonder still, m i really forgiven?




n for the WHYs dat u have been asking me, i believe i may hav to dissapoint u once more in explaining them.

conteng

o ya as i did some 'gerak gempur' di bilik, i found something interesting i.e the notebook i used to carry around when i wz in kys. n i flipped thru evry pages. n der! found these writings wrote in clouds.

cloud 1 : kau xrse kau bising ke?

cloud 2 : sekali sekala sebelum 'kiok!'.

cloud 1 : ha'ah yek. sementara masih ada mulut nk cakap. sementara perut besar, ade angin nk lepaskan.. (kidin)

cloud 2 : takpe kau bayang2, bisu. kalau kau nyanyi kang gempa bumi.



n i knew rite away the conversation wz btween me n Hariz Nazimuddin. haha!

usual scene at home prt 2

day 1

mak : bsok kita kemas rumah. suuumaaa mak nak tgk clear!!

blogger : ya.

day 2

mak : bsok adik..., kita bwat gotong royong kt luaq.

blogger : ya.

day 3

mak : bsok kita bwat gerak gempur! adik bwat bilik, mak bwat kt luaq.

blogger : ya.

uve got the picture. ;)

breaking through

as i tuned in the hallmark channel at 3 pm today.. 'breaking through' wz the title of the movie.. naahh boring. i thot. bt then after scanning thru the info, its about a single mother struggling to feed her children n happend to get involved with drugs dealing. typical. n as almost 30 minutes passed by, only then i noticed i havent changed the channel since then.

it wz an inspiring movie. made me realize hw ppl cn get into such a big trouble..
dat is certainly a knock on my head. when ppl all over the world are havin tremendous challenges dat are way beyond wt i cud imagine, y do i easily feel aweful n downright angry over some problems dat are in reality, incomparable to wt others are facing?

additional item for my new year's resolution list : stop being a crybaby.

;)

to remember n to forget

forget

bad things ppl had done to us

good things we had done to others

remember

good things ppl had done to us

bad things we had done to others








thus, m really2 sorry.

happy birthday!

Happy birthday Puteri Elisha Shahrir!
to my dearest fren, happy being 20 bt do stay being a 12 year-old at heart. ;)

tanx for being der when i need u, tanx for keeping it down to earth even when u deserve to be high on sky, tanx for sharing, tanx for willing to care, n tanx for the friendship. May endless blessings stay with u.. i miss u! ;)

stuck

it's ok to be stuck up for sumtin dat u really deserve, sumtin u hav worked hard for, sumtin dat earn u reasonable respects from others, sumtin dat proves hw u hav been living with decency, sumtin dat not all ppl cn do by chance, sumtin dat explain hw precious n worthy you are, sumtin u urself feel the satisfaction of doing it.

the stucked up face disguise ppl on the other hand, if it is for sum fruitful actions dat resulted from other ppl's sweat, sumtin u lend from ppl who by chance connected to u, sumtin dat has no guarantee to last long, sumtin dat u jz stand still n got the credits from it, sumtin u'd jz taken for granted, sumtin dat is simply aint urs.





u.me.us.ponder

down in town

i knoe. too much entries for a day rite? haha. bt i forgot to mention. Old Town is finally in town babeyhh!! wohoo!!!! Began to open yesterday i think. bt jz found out bout it dis morning. u hav no idea hw exciting it is to me.. o yes m a huge fan. its like..... its like a disneyland to me!! teeheee~~ Being here, in parit buntar, there's nothing much u cn expect. u want starbucks? drive 30 mins away from here to Auto-City. well dats the nearest. the same case it is for Old Town. n i wonder, y only now?? when i hav less than another 2 months to be at home? *sigh*



one cold cham coffee plz. thank u. ;)

soppingg

soo... i jz got back from shopping with parents.. sadly my brother cudnt cme along since he's in shah alam undergoing his football training as usual. it wud hav been much more enjoyable if he's around. bt u see, if he's around, we often fight.. hw's dat?? i guess dats wt siblings are for. haha. ive been desiring for a 'real' shopping experience with my family on dis holiday n hve been planning it loong before i went for my BTN camp, bt after mutual aggreement with my mother, we decided to hav it after ive done with the camp. plus there wud be off-day on friday for 3 weeks in a row. dats wt i luv being a Malaysian. celebrations, n more celebrations. Malaysia boleyh!!

we went to Queensbay. oo yeahh. bt... bnyak gle org kowt!!!! urrggh.. u wanna chase the sales, u aint gonna enjoy it alone.. duuhh.. MNG sales cm gle babi.. FOREVER 21 sales cm bse.. i tink there's no much different if it got sales or not. most of the prices are still out of my budget.. n suprisingly, notin really hav dat wt i call, 'ada rasa'.. bt still, i enjoyed my time der. its my so called 'self-defined haven'.. double wink for dat.

en en ohhh... i fell deeply in love.. deeply deeply in love with this shoes i cme across at CROCS. they're pump shoes, wedges n were magenta/purple/plum (wtever u wanna call it) in color. memang 'ada rasa' laa definitely. darnn!!! n oo yes its rm229. *sigh*... *more sigh*... its considerable if its around 1oo bugs bt 2oo sumtin is.... ermmmm. so then i started doing list of justifications not to buy it. hahaha.. bt wtever it is, im still in love.. so ppl, if u wanna bribe jen rite now, simply go n buy those, then ur wish is my command.. ull get an additional kiss kiss summore.. hurry2!!



sgt gorgeous!


it was so tiring.. indeed. bt then after dat, we headed to Megamall pulak to search for my luggage. weeeee~~~ ayah got his shoes, mak got her 'nagoya textile' n dat's dat.
n so we got home n evrybody had their 'admiring-wut-i-jz-bought' moments. n after dat we all went pengsan.

;)

teka tekuk

ayah : kalau org curi kta pnggil apa?

blogger : uhhh??

ayah : org curi,.... kita pnggil apa?

blogger : pencuri la.

ayah : salah.. kita panggil polis. hehehe... ehehe..

*cant believe he got me. urgh.*